Self pity is a hole and leads to bondage.  The most destructive holes I get swallowed up into are the ones I create myself.

I fell into a deep hole this week.  I kept sinking deeper and deeper.  Satan was closer and closer.

Poor me.  The tired, frail  woman who strives so hard to be the perfect wife and mommy, but only continues to fail day after day.  {hugging myself}

Romans  15:13 reads May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.

I had no joy nor peace this week while dwelling in poor me.  Abounded in me was Satan’s lies, not power from the Holy Spirit.  My lack of belief was only proving to my family that I had doubt in God’s sufficiency.

I was caught off guard.

Oh Lord, open my eyes, that I may behold wondrous things out of your law. May I meditate on Your Word and not on my self pity. Please forgive me for my disbelief in you.  Thank you for your unconditional love and abundant mercy.

I will not let Satan win!